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The Addict Who Still Suffers

 Brothers and Sisters in Recovery 🙏 Yesterday was sobering — no pun intended. I learned that my very good friend’s stepbrother passed away from an overdose. It hit hard. Real hard. Because every one of us knows the truth deep down… this disease does not play fair. Addiction does not care about age, family, intelligence, kindness, or potential. It steals sons, daughters, mothers, fathers, and friends. It leaves empty chairs at dinner tables and broken hearts that never fully heal. And the hardest part? Most of us know that person could have been us. Some of us have overdosed and somehow made it back. Some of us woke up in hospital beds. Some of us were brought back with Narcan. Some of us buried friends we laughed with just weeks before. We’ve watched addiction turn beautiful souls into statistics. That reality should shake every recovering addict to the core. But here’s what I also know: recovery gives us a responsibility. We are not just staying clean for ourselves anymore. We ar...
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The Struggle is Real




Brothers and Sisters in Recovery 🙏


I just want to say how grateful I am for life today.


It has been a struggle, and I’ve dealt with a lot of hard things—just like so many of you have. We all have different stories, and every single one of them is unique, powerful, and deeply meaningful. No two journeys are exactly the same, but we all know what it means to fight for our lives.


I also want to share something I just realized today: as you read this, I have 9 months and 4 days clean.


That is a huge milestone for me.


To some people, that might sound like a short amount of time—but to me, it is a lifetime. After more than 20 years in addiction, and 10 of those years trying to truly find recovery, this means everything to me. This is more than clean time. This is freedom. This is peace. This is proof that change is possible.


One of the biggest things I’ve learned along the way is the importance of trusting a Higher Power.


In Narcotics Anonymous and other fellowships, surrendering to a Higher Power is the keystone that holds the whole program together. For me personally, I call that Higher Power God, because that feels most true in my own life. For others, it may take a different form—and that’s okay. Just like our stories, our understanding of that power can be personal and unique. But the process of surrender is often the same.


For years, I tried to do everything on my own.


And every time, I failed.


I had some small victories here and there, but nothing close to what I’ve found now. Nothing close to the peace I have today. Nothing close to the freedom that comes with being clean and truly connected to something greater than myself.


What stopped me for so long was surrender.


I knew there was something out there. I explored many different religions and beliefs trying to understand that power. I may still put different labels on some of what I believe, but at the center of it all, I know this: there is something good in this universe. Something loving. Something healing. Something real.


And whatever that is—it has helped me.


It has carried me through pain. It has walked with me through cravings. It has met me in the moments when everything inside me hurt and I felt like I had nowhere else to turn. When I humble myself, when I stop trying to force life on my own terms, when I open myself up to that love—I find strength I never had by myself.


That power has helped me reach these 9 months.


That power has helped me be present for my family.


That power has helped me find peace.


That power has helped me become aware, become honest, become available, and become better.


For me, one of the greatest gifts I’ve ever received in this life is knowing that I have a Higher Power—a God who loves me, even when I couldn’t love myself.


If you’re struggling today, don’t give up.


If you’re hurting today, don’t isolate.


If you’re craving today, reach out.


If you’re doubting today, keep coming back.


There is hope. There is healing. There is freedom. And there is a life beyond anything addiction ever promised us.


We do recover.


With love and gratitude,

Gary G


Just for today.

Easy does it.

Keep coming back.

One day at a time.

Progress, not perfection.

Let go and let God.

It works if you work it—so work it, because you’re worth it.





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  1. AnonymousApril 10, 2026 at 4:45 PM

    Happy “9” months!!! Huge Accomplishment!!! Be proud of yourself!!!!

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    1. Gary GApril 19, 2026 at 12:34 PM

      I am proud. It's a huge accomplishment for me.

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