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Self-Sabotage in Recovery

Brothers and Sisters in Recovery 🙏 One of the biggest dangers in both active addiction and recovery is self-sabotage. A lot of us think relapse happens only when life gets bad. But the truth is, for many addicts, relapse can also happen when life starts getting good. Why? Because our brains became conditioned to chaos, pain, destruction, and survival mode. In active addiction, we trained ourselves—over and over again—to live in dysfunction. We got used to crisis. We got used to shame. We got used to tearing things down before life could tear them down for us. That is why self-sabotage is so common in recovery. When things finally begin to improve—when relationships heal, when peace shows up, when hope returns, when bills are getting paid, when we begin feeling proud of ourselves—that unfamiliar peace can actually feel threatening. To a brain that spent years wired for destruction, stability can feel uncomfortable. Safety can feel suspicious. Joy can feel foreign. That old addict...

Journaling in Recovery

 Brothers and Sisters in Recovery 🙏


I think I’m going to change it up a little today and talk about something simple, but powerful—journaling.


On this path of recovery, a lot of us live with overactive minds. Sometimes we overthink everything. Other times, we don’t think things through enough. Either way, when our thoughts start running wild, one of the best things we can do is write it down.


And I don’t mean it has to be some fancy leather-bound journal either. It can be in a notebook, on a napkin, on the back of a receipt, or even in a morning message like this. The point isn’t where you write—it’s that you get it out of your head and onto paper.


Writing in recovery is fundamental because it forces us to slow down and process what we’re feeling instead of reacting on impulse. It helps us use critical thinking instead of emotional chaos. When we write, we can see our thoughts more clearly. We can separate fear from facts, emotion from reality, and confusion from truth. Sometimes what feels overwhelming in our head suddenly looks manageable once it’s written out in front of us.


In a lot of ways, journaling is like picking up the phone and calling someone in your recovery network—except in that moment, you’re talking to yourself honestly. You’re giving yourself a chance to hear what’s really going on inside. And sometimes, when we’re not able to reach another addict right away, writing can help hold the line until we can.


Some of the best breakthroughs in recovery don’t come in big dramatic moments—they come in quiet ones. A pen. A piece of paper. A racing mind. And somewhere in the middle of that storm, clarity shows up. Sometimes the best ideas, the best realizations, and the best solutions come from a good old-fashioned brainstorm.


So if your mind is spinning today, don’t let it stay trapped up there. Write it out. Pray it out. Think it through. Sometimes the answer is already in you—you just need to give it a place to land.


With love and gratitude,

Gary G


Just for today. Easy does it. One day at a time. Keep me

coming back—it works if you work it.

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